On Lies

I lie to myself everyday. Why? To make myself feel better in the short run. I wonder how much harm I actually do myself with these lies in the long run. I think at the moment I just do not have the heart to forge forward but I do not know where to find the heart and where to find the purpose. So maybe the reason we lie to ourselves is so that we can slowly build up the strength of our heart or maybe we merely seek to delay decisions and required actions. Life is difficult, I wonder if the experience of life is really the same given it were easy.